I lost a friend here in this past year miss his guitar playing in my ear

Thsi is the time of year when my motivation disappears. The time when in 2 days it will all be over with. The time when I am so mentally and physically exhausted that I can't even describe it.
2 papers and a revision of one more is all that stands between me and a day off.

This is pretty much the first year that I think I have actually earned an xmas break.

My parents are bringing my puppy in tomorrow for a visit!
Except, I had a dream last night that she was really ugly, and I couldn't understand why. She had like stubby legs and was super fat and just an ugly puppy in general.

On the subject of dreams, I had one the other night in which somebody (not sure who) told me to "drive fast to the movies". I have no idea.

There was a cross dresser at the function I worked last night. I'm not sure that I have actually ever seen a real-life cross dresser. Although, there's that "lady" in Ottawa who hangs out between downtown and like my old neighbourhood... she wears a lot of purple outfits? Like... head to toe in purple and she has bleached blonde hair that's always done up.... always has the little cart of stuff with her?? Yeah.. anyway... I was always skeptical of her...
But anyway, the point of the story, is that this was a total ful-out real cross dresser.

A band that I really have been liking lately is Fountains of Wayne. That "hey Julie" song they had ruined them for me because I really dislike that song, but their other stuff is pretty good. It's really mellow, I like "Valley Winter Song" for some reason..

Been thinking a lot about next year lately. It is starting to register with me that I only have 1 year left in school and then it's not all fun and games anymore. (was it ever really though?) And like.. I need to decided in less than a year whether or not I want to take a year off or go to grad school... Umm... I don't even really know what grad school is...
I mean... I know, but I am not aware of all that is potentially out there. I don't want to spend more time and money on something and then realize it's still useless, or worse I hate it.
I also am planning a trip.
I am supposed to go to Tennessee and various other parts of the states this summer for Bonaroo, but I feel skeptical about it for some reason. There are a lot of logistic problems...
Anyway, as a result, I have decided that if that doesn't happen, I am going on my own roadtrip. Not necessarily alone, but if nobody else wants to accompany me, then I will be in the exclusive company of me, myself and I.
I have the money saved for either trip and I have more than a strong urge to go. I know I can get the time off from work, so really there is nothing at all stopping me.
I will take my camera and lots of film and just.... drive... and see where I end up.. ultimately, I'd like to make it to BC, and maybe fly home? or maybe not...
The ultimate roadtrip would be to drive to BC and then go down the Pacific Coast of the states, and then across te states and back up the Eastern Seaboard and back to Nova Scotia.
If I won the lottery, that is the trip that I would take first I do believe.... and I'd do it in some kind of sexy convertable...

Bah... I offically have an hour and a half to make lunch, dry my hair and write 500 more words on a paper.







It's not going to happen.