I want my MTV

I spent my first night in my new huge room in my new beautiful appartment on wednesday night. I am 75% unpacked, I need more shelves/places to put stuff before I can do the final push.
I handed out 15 resumes on Thursday and have probably 15 more places I could/should/ will go to.
Somebody had better atleast call me. I had to pay bills today and now I have no money plus more bills to pay. Bitches. Bitches and hoes.

So my room is huge, but pink..... but did I mention its huge??? yeah..... I have a pink room. Although it's not like baby pink, pink.. it's like... shell pink, or even a taupey pink... but definately a lot of pink. My favourite colour it lime green. I have a lot of lime green things. It does not look so hot. But I find that I care less and less.

We have a super tacky window. We decorated the living room. We have no furnature.

I miss people already......

I have been home for a week and while I have been busy, I feel.... let down or something.
Last summer coming home was amazing. I had a lot of stuff going on/ waiting for me when I first got back. I don't think I was home more than 2 nights for all of May. There were so many people to see and places to go and so far I haven't seen anybody.

Then again... who is there to see? This year it became clear that this summer would be different for a whole bunch of different reasons, and thats not to say that this isn't a good thing. Its just that all these changes seemed to happen without ceremony or warning, and then all of a sudden, Oh... ok then. I guess its hard to explain. Fact is, last summer was the best summer ever, and it was the root of my wanting to come home really. It wasn't the cause (although, I don't even know what the cause is really..) but it gave the desire a strong base.

At the same time, I don't really have any strong desire to restart some connections... I am content to be ultra anti-social for some reason. I give that about 3 more days until I am sick of hermitdom and need a social fix of people that are under the age of 25. seriously.

Is it just me or is mother's day hyped to the max this year? Like, it's almost like it's the new christmas. In may. and instead of it being about jesus, its about mothers. Your Mother to be exact.
I mean, I feel like I am the worst daughter in the world because I am not buying my mom a pink ipod mini or a freakin diamond necklace. I mean, help a brother out here, you know what I mean? Am I doomed to rot in bad daughter hell for the rest of my life because I spent my money on booze and other cheap thrills this year? Admittedly, I am exaggerating. but not by much damnit.

In other, less crazed news......

I made a case for my ipod tonight. Yeah, I resorted to sewing to ease my boredom. The cool part is though that the case is so freaking boss that it's sick. So phat that its sick if you will. It has an orange tropical print liner, and the outside is black cord and then the coolest part ever is this hot pink eighth note that I embroidered on the front all by myself! man I'm so fucking crafty sometimes! It only took me like.... 2 hours to make... not even. Except now my index finger and thumb are wicked sore and full of all kinds of minature needle holes because I kept stickin myself.

And then like, tomorrow, I am like, so totally like going to like the valley! Ohmygod. I'm like totally excited. Really... I am. I'm not lying... I need a life... or a job. Or maybe both.
I think this has gone on long enough, don't you?

Ps. if you just read all that, high five yourself for perservearing...