Don't We Live the Life

Saturday, February 26, 2005

My Life as of the last little while..

The short form version...

- Got accepted to a school in Halifax
- Signed a lease (well I didn't ersonally, but my roomates did for me) for an appartment in Halifax
- Drank like a drunk fish last week
- Went to TO
- Came back so broke that its sickening
- Slept in until 3pm today
- Not really feeling myself lately
- Exams are finished April 28th
- I'm not overly impressed by this
- I want to go on a trip this summer, but I cannot decide the destination
- I can't believe its almost March
- I don't know if I can survive the workload bewteen now and then.
- I want this year to be over, but at the same time I want everything to slow down. I will be gone too fast and I am not ready.

That is all...

I present to you...

One Tuesday Night In Ottawa.....

Featuring: Kat, Mel, Zach and Kevin


The beginning of the end... Posted by Hello


The beginning of the end take 2... Posted by Hello


Chillin' and Illin' Posted by Hello


Chillin with another hommie Posted by Hello


that ain't just coke in that bottle... Posted by Hello


The tourist shot Posted by Hello


The end of the night Posted by Hello

Ottawa, I'm yours...

Monday, February 14, 2005

Monday back from the dead...

Well, let's see...

Today is V-day, though I don't intend to go on some crazed rant about how it's a stupid day created by greting card companies and all the typical rant type stuff. So basically, good for ya if you eat some chocolate and get some roses or whatever, and if not, chocolate will rot your teeth and flowers make a mess when they die anyway.

Among things that I hate lately, my appartment tops the list. (well, lets be honest, it's second behind somebody else.) Why? I'll tell you.
It's small, cluttered, and cramped. I feel kind of trapped in it and I am seriously fantisizing about March 1 when i can tell my landlord to go find somebody else to live in this shitbox. On top of that, it's been random noisy lately. There is this small dog that lives in the ajoining house that only barks at night, and I am starting to think that maybe it's not really a real dog but some sort of recording designed to keep people away or something. As well, this morning I woke up to random banging. It sounded like the door outside that houses the garbage stuff was like banging against the house in the wind or something..... for 5 hours. And everytime that it hits, it makes the glass fish on my mirror hit against the mirror, thus making the hitting noise even more annoying due to the 1- 2 punch effect.

I'm also pretty damn happy to be finished working. It was only for 2 weekends, and the amount of money I made is incredible really. It was still however, one of the worst jobs ever. Cold, repititious etc. but especially cold.

I came to a conclusion as well. I may not know what it is that I want to do with my life, but I do have a growing list of things that I know I don't want to do for the rest of my life. It's my thinking that eventually the list will be long enough that realizing what I do want to do will just be a process of elimination.

Of course rock star is still my #1 career choice, but I think a certain degree of talent and ambition is involved. Of which I have very limited supplies. Especially ambition.

Last night was a random good time. It's 9pm, I am in sweats under a quilt, watching the grammy's. But THEN! 30min later, I was at a bar, drinking beer with the Ottawa 67's hockey team and my friend Kat and her friends from home. At midnight, I come home, drunk off of free beer and quite satisfied that I didn't just go to bed early because I was tired, and had curly hair.

So now, I am slightly hung over, on a Monday morning on a cold and grey Ottawa day.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

blah

Today has been a very blah day
Blah weather, grey skies and dirty snow.. I hate dirty snow..
I hate early spring too. But is it even early spring? It feels and looks like it, but its only February.. isn't it supposed to be snowing and cold?

I feel like I'm treading water and running out of energy in regards to school. I was doing so well and then all of a sudden my stamina is wearing off. I am behind for the first time all year. But I can't sink because now is when it counts.

I wanted to stay home today and read, wear sweat pants. Drink hot chocolate. Not feeling very good about anything today, one of those days when my appearance matches my mood too. I managed to spill coffee all over the front of my white sweater, and then walk around all day not knowing about it.

I've been having weird dreams lately about people from my past. Also a lot of material dreams, dreams where I am in malls and all the stores are huge and colourful and stocked full of cool stuff but I can never go into the stores for some reason. I have this recurring dream about this one mall.. What the hell? I'm not an overly materialistic person either, or atleast I don't think I am. I'm sure its some kind of symbolism for.... something...

Still in desperate need of a shake up. I think the routine is draining my energy, I can't seem to get rested. I'm worried that my non sleeping is coming back too. I can't afford to not be sleeping now on top of this.... I think moving out of here will solve a lot of problems. It's never felt like home, in fact I often feel extremely uncomfortable here. Not the city, its specific to the appartment.

99 Red Balloons reminds me of summer, and a specific summer memory- driving back form rissers beach with kyle and matt like 4 years ago. The sun was shining, it was warm. The river road is probably one of my favourite drives ever.

Gotta go play badminton.


Friday, February 04, 2005

You know your life is in a rut when you shake things up by buying a different type of pasta...

Fo' sure.

It's been wicked dull around here lately. Just the usual. The status quo if you will.

Get up, eat breakfast, go to school, come home, have supper, read, bed. Lather. Rise. Repeat. Oh Scratch that. Throw Badminton in the mix there once a week. Now there's variety for you.

You must be thinking that, surely Mel with your downtown lifestyle (you don't get much more downtown than having a gay sex store at your bus stop) there must be SOMETHING to do... And I have this to say. I'm more than sure there is SOMETHING to do, but where? and what is it? does it cost money? can i bring my friends? would my friends even want to go??

The point is folks, I am bored. And not just bored in that sitting at the computer playing card games because there's nothing ont TV kind of bored. I'm talking the, Oh man, my routine is so scheduled that you sould set you clock to it bored. I think i might even be wearing the same clothes on the same days of the week, week after week.

The sad thing is, as stagnent and dull as this all is, its strangely comforting... But thats the problem.. there's no edge, no pizzaz no anticipation of a new and exciting and different day.

Spectacular..

PS. Totally random quote of the day : "Spock was a moron. He would die." - My Psych Prof while explaining the importance of emotions this morning. Priceless hilarity.